Wednesday

Day 18 - The Pendulum

ARGHHH - This journey can get a little frustrating with this pendulum swinging from good days to bad. Did the 8:15 class with Marcie last night. Marcie is a superb teacher, in that she very much cares for and respects the practice and students. She is conscious of her dialogue and her tone is very encouraging with an liter of "push yourself". I went into class, like so many these days, excited and ready for my 90 minute focused & determined healing time. Again I got no ice. (Ice is just a tool, I kept telling myself - and ... bring your own ice next time. lol)

The first half of practice was great, I went deeper in Ardha-Chandrasana with Pada-Sasthasana/Half-moon with hands to feet pose and almost touched my forehead to the ground in Dandayamana-Bibhaktapada-Paschimotthasana/standing seperate leg with stretching! It was around triangle that I started to struggle, feeling weak in my legs and I kept yawning (lack of oxygen?). The last half of class was just terrible, I had this insane tinglely feeling in my achilles tendon (more of a numbness) and my calves felt like they were the tighest rubberbands ever (still kind of do). I couldn't sit still in a Savasana cause my legs were so twitchy and they hurt. It completely disrupted my focus, and I started to fear I couldn't finish. I pushed through some of my favorite poses (Supta Vajrasana/Fixed Firm Pose and Ustrasana/Camel Pose) knowing that these were super beneficial to my back (which is actually beginning to feel a little bit better - patience patience patience), but I couldn't will myself into others electing rather to lay in savansana and try to forget that my legs were internally screaming at me to quit. In the end I finished class, of course, that is the goal afterall but rushed out and lamented on a bench outside class how difficult that was for me personally. A fellow classmate said, "Well, good for you, it means you are reaching new places", which I suppose is true, but still so difficult. I spoke with Marcie a bit afterwards about my awkward achilles tendon feeling, and she suggested I drink more water. Seems like a bucket answer to me, but I agree I could have taken in more water on such a stressful day.

Why is Day 18 so much harder than Day 5?!!? Is day 45 going to be this difficult? Day 60?

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